A Series of Unfortunate Events: Starring my Life

Being a broke college student is hard but I have perfected that art for the past four years. Now that I actually have a piece of paper that says I have a BS (pretty much bullshit) degree in Psychology I can't seem to do anything with it. You know you have hit rock bottom when the animal clinic won't even hire you. I mean damn, I know how to do things but I just don't have the "experience" that most companies are looking for. EXPERIENCE is a 10 letter word that will be the bane of your existence. In simple words if you don't have it, tough luck my friend. Being the first person in my family to get this far I literally didn't have anyone to turn to for advice. I learned about GREs and internships, externships, research opportunities and recommendation letters in my senior year. While everyone else had already jumped the bandwagon into experience land I am just sitting over here on google trying to figure out what the hell an internship is. So I have decided that I am going back to school. Why? I want another shot at doing things the right way. More internships, more externships, more research=no life for me (not that I had one anyways but that is besides the point I am trying to make here). This is my second chance at proving people wrong and making my family proud and instead of four years I get to do it in one. Watch out world cause here I come....just don't expect me to run...that is not a pretty sight. 

And the phantom strikes again!

Eddie came in again today but I was so busy with what I was doing I didn't even get to see him. 

baby come back

Ed/Eddie/Edward: Why is this so hard?

How can someone be constantly on your mind when you don't even have the balls to talk to him in the first place? Well that would imply that I have balls...which I don't. Oh and on another note, he has no idea I exist outside of where I work. Eddie comes into my place of work about twice a month. He always leaves a donation and probably orders the same thing and at this point I couldn't care less because once his name comes up I forget how to Noosh. A simple smile is all I get once he comes in and to be honest that is all I need. Who am I kidding. I need a lot more. He is tall and a total beefcake and...and nothing. I'll leave Eddie to my fantasy and just keep doing my thing, whatever that may be. If being forever alone is a "thing" then I pretty much have that covered.

Underneath the skin there's a human

It seems like I am in one of those moods. The type of mood that nothing matters. Even if something remotely fascinating happened I couldn't bring myself to care for it at all. I can't seem to find the inspiration to do anything lately and quite frankly even my "mood" is starting to annoy me. It could be that I am annoying myself. Damn. Life already had a solid grip on me but now I just feel like I am just walking on disappointment. 

Review: The Fault In Our Stars Movie (This review contains spoilers!)

Review:
First of all I just want to start out by thanking my best friend Alysha for allowing me to go to the screening of this movie with her. I am so glad that we are friends and we haven't lost track of who we are and what we like. Thank you for just being you and accepting me for who I am

This movie was a lot funnier than I originally thought it would be. The casting for this movie was perfect. The story is heart warming. The film was amazing. I will even dare to say that not only did the movie give the book justice but it was even better than the book.

One part in particular that I was drawn to was when they visit the Anne Frank House. In the book that moment was a  small part, but in the movie as Anne's recording is playing you notice the parallelism between their lives.

My friend and I made a bet that she wouldn't cry during the movie because I already knew I would. Not only did we cry (and I became 5$ richer) but we both sobbed. We were one hiccup away from full on meltdown. The struggle was real. The one part in the book that made me start crying was when Augustus takes Hazel to the bench and tells her that his cancer is back. That part also got to me in the movie as well. The one part that I just couldn't stop myself from crying was when Hazel states her fear. She was fearful that her parents will be alone and they will go crazy when she dies. I think the one fear that we as kids have is hurting our parents. In Hazel's case she feared that her death would end all happiness that her parents would ever have and that her mother would no longer be a mother <insert my sobbing face here>

The movie and book are both great. It teaches you that life is short. Not because people say it is but because tomorrow is uncertain. After talking with my friend and a few other people in the past week it is really hard for me to grasp the fact that I haven't done anything that is worth talking about in my life.I don't just want to sit here and lay waste to this one precious life that I was given. I don't want to wait until something bad happens to want to do what I didn't. I want to start living my life the way I imagined it being. Nothing is forever, but there are infinite amount of possibilities.                                                                                                                    

Reivew: Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi

Summary:

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time for war.

Juliette has escaped to Omega Point. It is a place for people like her—people with gifts—and it is also the headquarters of the rebel resistance.

She's finally free from The Reestablishment, free from their plan to use her as a weapon, and free to love Adam. But Juliette will never be free from her lethal touch.

Or from Warner, who wants Juliette more than she ever thought possible.

In this exhilarating sequel to Shatter Me, Juliette has to make life-changing decisions between what she wants and what she thinks is right. Decisions that might involve choosing between her heart—and Adam's life.

Review:
I was so deprived from books for a while that when I got this one it was like FREEDOM. I literally wanted to just the book to read itself to me. I needed to know what happens to Juliette and Adam. After reading Shatter Me, it was hard trying to pick up a sequel and think that it would ever be as good as the first one but I knew deep down that Tahereh had something up her sleeve.

 Once again I was floored by Mafi's description of the setting. Through her words we get a sense of what it is really like to actually be right there in the moment. Her imagery is out of this world. Her words are so captivating and raw. It's MAGIC.

In the first book you saw Juliette as very timid and drawn back from the world but in this book you see her branch out a little. It is partly due to the fact that she is starting to embrace her talent. She learns that she is more than just a powerful touch. I am glad that Juliette finally had a voice. I feel that one of the reasons that she came to a standstill with Adam is because he was okay with everything as long as he called the shots and he was in control. You see that Juliette is finally coming into her own and with her new powers she doesn't have to be afraid anymore. But for Adam it is about control and if he doesn't have that he breaks down. He is more fragile than her. We were introduced to Adams character as someone who just wanted to protect Juliette but we never really got a chance to actually know him. Although I don't think that Warner is a better choice but he loves Juliette for who she is. He solely believes in her. 

I didn't want to like Warner at first. I knew he was a conflicted person. But I knew there was more to his story than just being some ruthless person with no emotions. He practically became goo around Juliette. But I believe that is all apart of Mafi's charm when she writes. Deep down she knows that we as readers always root for the bad guy. I want to be wrong about Warner but I am drawn to his character the more I resist.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Kenji's character. He is the comic relief and I enjoyed every scene he was a part of. Although he is a secondary character he made the biggest impact. He was determined to do anything for the cause of fighting back. He was a good buffer to all the chaos.

Overall, I think that this book allows us to see in how the characters have grown. It was a good book but I believe that Shatter Me still stands on its own. 

Review: Fault In Our Stars by John Green

Summary:
Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel's story is about to be completely rewritten.

Review:
In honor of going to the screening of this movie tomorrow I decided to finally do my review of this book. I really hope that the movie stays true to the book. 

My picture edit.

The first thing that got me excited for this book was the quotes that people were putting up on tumblr and such. I bought the book with my mom and I remember reading her the little summary in the back and we both  almost started crying from just that little snip bit. 

Let me start off by saying that this book has the best quotes. One of my favorite quotes is:

This story is about falling in love. Its about being happy no matter the circumstances. Its about taking a risk when all you want to do is just give up. This book is filled with emotions, the good, the bad and the ugly. This story is not just one big sob story, it has an off balance. There are parts that you can't help but smile while you read. Then there are parts that you can't help but feel how deep the words can be.There is no fluff. No BS.With John's writing you get the story without the dramatics. This story is as honest and raw as it gets.

The love between Hazel and Augustus is pure. Their love has nothing to do with looks. It comes from the heart. It is probably the definition of true love. They fall in love with each other. They fall in love with life.

Overall, this book is beautiful and tragic at the same time. I never knew that one person can poetically make something depressing and funny within the same sentence. Yes, I did cry while reading this book. I have lost a loved one to cancer and to read about the pain and struggle made me think of that moment in time. To some it might not be the best read or the best book but I recommend that you at least give it a read before you judge it by what everyone else thinks. You might even be suprised